Showing posts with label student life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label student life. Show all posts

Sunday, May 27, 2012

It's hard to tell what's inside my heart


Lately, i've been starting my final examination...well it's fine really fine...is it? oh well every critical time like this, something would come up and bothers me...why...why...and why?? I don't quite understand it.. It felt like a large lump in my heart pushing to my throat, trying to get out!

Oh friend, you are too precious for me..our friendship is priceless..Don't let our ship be sunked to the bottom of this challenging world...i know we could make through all this together...Don't just turn away..Let's face it!

Monday, January 16, 2012

On New Year's Eve


The last day of 2011 and welcoming 2012 with free heart and soul.... Normally during new year's eve, i usually sit by myself and reflect back on the things that i've done and accomplished so far...But for this time i gathered with my family...we all comfortably enjoy the last night of the year together, having dinner and midnight walk~~now how romantic is that?? Well actually tak la romantic sangat sebab everywhere and anytime we take a walk together, rase cam rombongan pun ade...hehe ^____^ because i have a total number of 6 siblings then plus my parents and plus my maid...so we make a total of 9 person walking together....hehe macam mini gathering kan? Well this is my family...

Even though i am with my family at that time, cherishing every moments with joy but my heart still bled because of someone, and as usual that night i did some reflection on myself...YES, i have indeed changed from what i am in 2010. 

  • Now i add one more year to my age, progressing further in my studies
  • I have my own car, my baby SUZUKI SWIFT SPORT (i named her Snow)
  • Keeping all my promises
  • be good to my family
  • Always be there for my best friends (well not literally, but technically; i did fought with one of my besties but we made up to one another)
  • Falling in love
  • Keeping the love blooms
  • hiding my deep secrets....
  • etc 1000x

hehe so far the progress that i reflected throughout year 2011 is all okay~~ but until the month of December, something had happened to me...i think my dear readers know right? December is the toughest month for me in year 2011....until now my heart still bleeds....hurm... 2011 is fading away~~~



Now i don't know whether i should look forward for 2012 brightly or not. Just not sure of the things that are coming.....ouh~~~

Even though it is already quite late, but because we are still in January i would like to wish all of you Happy New Year 2012, and let us welcome this year with our heart opens.....HELLO 2012 ^____^

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Thorn in between me...


Now i'm onlining using other people's lappy, i miss my cute little lappy..i don't need to type broad because my lappy is only 10 inch compared to this 16 inch! hehe ^_^ What am i going to post for today? Well as we all know, all ipta's student is currently facing their final examination period

BEST OF LUCK TO ALL MY PEERS WHOM CURRENTLY FACING THEIR FINAL EXAMS!! FIGHTING!

 remarkably this time i felt no mood at all to study...it is not like i am torn between to study or not to study but i am indeed don't want to study at all..OH NO~! NO NO NO NO....

Hehe actually wanted to share with you all something...For a long time i felt that there is a thorn in between my heart...luckily someone arrived into my life and the thorn was gone..but now it is here again, prickling deeply inside my heart and left me bleeding from inside...oh it hurts...it hurts~! *sobs*


 Somehow, people can't see that i'm suffering, i must swallow it all inside me...I must cloud all my true feelings inside and protect it from being known by others by keep smiling and be cheerful at all times...haish being yukie is not an easy task..Now i keep holding on, waiting for the answer to come or perhaps my time will arrive before i even know the answer...nobody will be held responsible to what happens to me...remember that...i know you are reading...hahahahaha (^_~) *spooky mood~!*

Lately i love to write poems, to express my deep feelings...well enjoy:


My knees start to shake
when you are in sight,
my minds filled with wonder
my heart with fright.

when will this feeling stop, 
when did it start 
how can I listen to my mind
without breaking my heart.

I am so confused, 
what should I do? 
I can't think of anything 
except of you.

Shouldn't ignore you 
 just give it time
I can't think straight 
my heart controls my mind.


Tuesday, December 27, 2011

I Say, I Love You...




Every time I say I love you...

I'm really trying to say so much more than those three little words.
I'm trying to say you mean more to me than anyone else in the world.
I'm trying to let you know that I adore you and 
that I cherish the time we spend together.
I'm trying to explain that I want you and that I need you 
and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts every time I think about you.

And each time I whisper "I love you", I'm trying to remind you that you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.


Monday, December 26, 2011

Deep in my heart...:::....


Sometimes there are some stuff that you keep in your head, it will blends with your thoughts....
And again it will raise questions and pondering about this and that...
Well i take a deep breath and answer the questions with my heart...
Because for me when you unconsciously answers your thoughts...
That is the truest and most meaningful answer because you know your heart's desire...
Without anyone to interrupt your answers...
My advice is  be true to your heart...
You need to be true to yourself everyday and always ^__^

If you are asking if i NEED YOU,
The answer is FOREVER....
If you are asking if i will ever LEAVE YOU,
The answer is NEVER....
If you are asking if what I VALUE,
The answer is YOU....
If you are asking if I LOVE YOU,
The answer is I DO....

P/s: It is not easy to be true to one's self...but do try, cause you'll never know what the outcomes will be...indeed it will surprises you though....

Friday, December 23, 2011

Dampening eyes of me~~


I have shed my tears long enough
I have restless nights long enough
Why is all this happens to me?
Am i not being destined to be happy?
The answer might be true...

And i am alone inside
The hollowness once filled with you
Now it is hollow once again
Without you i'm LOST
Without you it is better for me to go away
DIE
Leaving this world at peace once and for all


You promised to make me happy
SHATTERED
You asked me to wake up
SHOULDN'T
You said you loved me
.......
*sigh*


Last night i thought i was the luckiest girl in the world
When you said how beautiful i am to your eyes
We cried out of joy for one another
And yet cried together out of the bitterness
You said that we shall never be apart
You will never leave me
And i must never leave you
You are my soul and i am yours
Is it just simply words?
Coz i couldn't comprehend the feelings it brought with...

there are some you can't let go of
the ones whom you shed a tear for
when they travel away from you
those are the ones you feel you love

then there are some that you hate to see go
but hold back your dampening eyes
when they part from your side
these are the ones you know you love




Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Liza Hanim- Merawat Luka Terpendam



Lately ku banyak merasakan diriku disakiti...dihimpiti...dipijak...dibuang...ditinggal...haish2...kalau nak list banyak sangat...Ape2 pun lirik lagu kat bawah ni sangat menyentuh perasaan yuki...lirik lagu ni seakan-akan melambangkan apa yg ade dalam hati yuki ni......

Merawat luka yang terpendam
Kesannya masih berdarah
Hendak ku tangiskan tiada pedih
Yang telah terjadi padaku
Pasrah aku terima

(Korus)
Kau hujankan penghinaan
Aku renjis kesabaran
Aku curah pertanyaan
Adakah bahagia nanti akan menyingkir hiba
Dalam ribut ada hina
Dalam tenang ada sabar
Dalam tangis sendirian
Berkemungkinankan bahagia nanti akan menyusur tiba

Bukan ku mengundang bencana
Juga tak ku menabur dosa
Tak dapat dinafi kebetulan
Dugaan menimpa diriku
Rela aku terima

(Ulang korus)


Thursday, December 15, 2011

Wedding dress dilemma...

Nowadays when i opened my social network websites..here and there people are talking about Bella Swan's @ Bella Cullen's wedding dress in the movie Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn.. I have yet to watch the movie because am now so busy with all the schedules, assignments, presentations, oral tests, quizzes and etc2..because now we only have less than two weeks left before the final exam of the semester begins!

As i am intrigued by the subject matter...i tried to Google the wedding dress picture...and the result is very impressive..It is a very highly sophisticated wedding dress... 100% Good Job for the Costume Department of the Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn movie...*clap clap clap* ^____^

So here are the pictures...p/s: there's so many different version appear when i Googled it, so i don't know which is the one that is being portrayed in the movie...so i'm just guessing and choose the most elegant ones....


Woooowww this one totally looks like high class, elegant and sophisticated dress...hmmm....


This one looks simple and naive..yet very pretty...

Monday, December 12, 2011

Setiap hari aku rindu~~



Hari pertama… Kita mula bertemu
Hari kedua… Kita membalas senyum
Hari ketiga… Kau hubungi diriku
Hari keempat… Rindu sering merindu
Hari kelima… Kau bisik rahsia hati
Hari keenam… Kasih kian bersemi
Hari ketujuh… Kau ucap kata sayang
Terjalin lah ikatan percintaan… Kau dan aku

Hari hari… Aku rindu
Tiap saat ku tatap potretmu
Moga moga kasih kita kan direstui
Oh kekasih

Hari hari… Aku cinta
Siang malam terbayang di mata
Jangan jangan 
Hari esok ada yang terluka

Berjanji lah oh kekasih ku
Berjanji lah padaku dan ku jua
Sehingga kini masih mencintaimu

Oh sayangku

Mimpi mimpi indah semalam
Jangan lah di hancurkan
Tak ingin ku berpisah kasih dengan dirimu

Hari pertama… Kita mula bertemu
Hari kedua… Kita membalas senyum
Hari ketiga… Kau hubungi diriku
Hari keempat… Rindu sering merindu
sering merindu

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Pictures of Gizmo. . . .my baby Sugar Glider...

On my best friends request, they wanted to see the pictures of Gizmo drinking his milk...I would like to apologize for updating on it quite late..Sorry girls... (-_-)

There's too many things that happen in my life nowadays and yet too many things to settle...haish...Wish that you girls are by my side..why are we very further apart? What can i do...but i trust our bonds, it will last forever..~!

So here are the pictures...



Gizmo coming out of his pouch when he smells the milk, "yeay time to drink milk~!"


gulp, gulp, nyum, nyum.....sampai comot2.. (^_~)


tengok tu..pegang syringe macam pegang botol susu...awww my baby is so cute!


mama kate: "minum sampai habis ye gizmo!"



heee, gizmo just follow the syringe...



it's a relieving moment for me when i feed gizmo with milk....feeling like a mother myself! ^___^


After finish drinking milk, gizmo will go back to his tent and wait for his mommy to rub his tummy....hehe good boy gizmo!

Awal muharram satu sejarah

Hye salam Muharram....walaupun awal muharram bulan lalu, namun bagi yuki macam baru semalam ia berlalu...

Haaaa... Sapa tau kisah atau peristiwa hijrah Rasulullah pada bulan Muharram tu? Kisah Hijrah Rasulullah menyampaikan dakwah Islam?? Haaaa..... Meh kita baca... 

RASULULLAH (SAW) berusia 40 tahun apabila malaikat Jibrail (as) melawat baginda ketika baginda sedang berada di Gua Hira. Jibrail memberitahu Nabi Muhammad, baginda diangkat oleh Allah SWT sebagai rasul untuk seluruh umat manusia.

Pada peringkat awal, Rasulullah hanya memperkenalkan Islam kepada sahabat terdekat dan ahli keluarga baginda. Apabila baginda menerima perintah daripada Allah SWT supaya berdakwah secara terbuka, baginda segera akur.

Baginda mengumpul beberapa pengikut di Makkah. Begitupun, kumpulan kecil Muslim itu terdedah kepada maut berikutan ancaman daripada kaum kafir, terutama bangsa Quraish, yang menyeksa mereka dengan teruk.

Bagi mengelakkan ancaman itu, Rasulullah SAW mengarahkan pengikutnya supaya keluar dari Makkah secara senyap-senyap ke Madinah (ketika itu dikenali sebagai Yathrib). Mereka meninggalkan keluarga yang kafir dan harta benda dan disambut dengan mesra oleh penduduk Madinah.

Satu hari pada tahun 622SM, iaitu kira-kira 12 selepas berdakwah di Makkah, Rasulullah SAW diberitahu kaum kafirun Makkah merancang membunuh baginda untuk memusnahkan Islam. Rasulullah menunggu perintah daripada Allah SWT. Malaikat Jibrail (as) menemui baginda untuk memberitahunya Allah SWT mengarahkan baginda supaya meninggalkan Madinah pada waktu malam.

Berikutan itu, baginda menemui sahabat baiknya Abu Bakar as-Siddiq (ra) dan memintanya supaya menemani baginda dalam perjalanan itu. Rasulullah juga memberitahu rancangan baginda kepada Ali bin Abi Talib (ra). Baginda memberitahunya: “Saya akan berhijrah tetapi anda perlu mengambil tempat saya di rumah.” Ali (ra) tanpa banyak soal menuruti permintaan Rasulullah (SAW) walaupun menyedari bahaya bakal dihadapinya.

Malam itu, sekumpulan Quraish mengepung rumah Rasulullah (SAW). Mengintai melalui lubang di pintu, mereka nampak seseorang sedang tidur di atas katil Rasulullah (SAW). Mereka begitu yakin Rasulullah tidak dapat melepaskan diri dan mereka pasti dapat membunuh baginda. Apabila fajar menjelang, mereka terperanjat melihat Ali (as) dan bukannya Rasulullah (SAW) bangun dari katil itu.

Mereka terpinga-pinga memikirkan bila Rasulullah (SAW) keluar dari rumah itu. Rasulullah (SAW) dan Abu Bakr (as) keluar dari Makkah pada malam itu juga. Tiada siapa mengetahui arah tujuan mereka dan tiada siapa tahu tempat persembunyian mereka kecuali Abdullah dan anak-anak Abu Bakr, Aishah dan Asma, serta orang gaji mereka, Abdullah. Rasulullah (SAW) dan Abu Bakr bersembunyi dalam sebuah gua di Gunung Thaur. Selama tiga hari mereka berada dalam gua itu.

Apabila kaum Quraish menghampiri gua itu untuk mencari Rasulullah (SAW) tetapi mereka tidak memasukinya. Mereka yakin Rasulullah (SAW) dan Abu Bakr (as) tidak berada di dalam kerana mulut gua itu dilitupi oleh benang sarang labah-labah dan sepasang burung merpati. Allah SWT membantu dua insan ini, melindungi mereka daripada bahaya. Kumpulan Quraish kemudian meninggalkan gua itu dan bersetuju untuk pulang ke Makkah.

Yakin musuh sudah beredar, Rasulullah (SAW) dan Abu Bakr (as) meneruskan perjalanan dengan menaiki unta dibawa oleh orang gaji mereka, Abdullah. Ketiga-tiga mereka menggunakan laluan tidak diketahui ramai untuk ke Madinah bagi mengelakkan kumpulan pemburu Quraish. Mereka meredah gunung, bukit dan gurun di bawah perit matahari tetapi mereka tidak pernah berputus asa. Mereka meletakkan segala kepercayaan kepada Allah SWT.

Sementara itu, kaum Quraish di Makkah semakin marah dengan kehilangan Rasulullah (SAW). Mereka menawarkan hadiah kepada sesiapa yang dapat menangkap Rasulullah (SAW). Ramai yang mencuba nasib tetapi semuanya gagal.

Akhirnya dengan perlindungan Allah SWT, Rasulullah (SAW) dan sahabatnya tiba perkampungan kaum Bani Sabin yang menyambut mereka dengan gembira. Setelah sekian lama, Rasulullah (SAW) dan sahabatnya akhir merasakan kehadiran harapan untuk masa depan.

Ketika Rasulullah (SAW) dan sahabatnya dalam perjalanan, penduduk Islam yang sudah berpindah ke Madinah sebelum ini mendengar berita mengenai kedatangan pemimpin mereka itu. Malah penduduk Madinah yang baru memeluk Islam juga gembira dapat bertemu Rasulullah (SAW). Jelaslah, sebelum tibanya Rasulullah di Madinah, Islam semakin kukuh di tempat baru itu, sesuatu yang tidak berlaku ketika berada di Makkah.

Maka pada satu hari Jumaat yang ceria, Rasulullah (SAW) akhirnya diumumkan sudah tiba di Madinah. Kaum Muslim semua keluar untuk menyambut baginda. Rasulullah (SAW) menunaikan solat di sebuah masjid di Lembah Ranuqna, tempat semua umat Islam berkumpul untuk melihat kelibat lelaki mereka sanjungi itu.

Bertitik tolak dari itu, Rasulullah (SAW) mula membina sebuah negara Islam yang megah. Baginda memupukkan persaudaraan di kalangan umat Muslim dan menyeru mereka supaya menegakkan yang hak dan mengikut segala perintah Allah SWT.

Kesan daripada penghijrahan Rasulullah (SAW) dari Makkah ke Madinah adalah satu catatan penting sehingga umat Islam menjadikan peristiwa bersejarah ini sebagai permulaan kalendar Islam.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Tale of the heart. . . .

Today my heart is thumping fast....faster than anyone could imagine...why..why...WHY???


I think only me and God knows why...
Something had happened today...and i will continue to cherish this moment inside my heart...
i would like to say thank you to my loved ones for everything....
you make my day brighter... ^___^

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