It's hard to tell what's inside my heart

Lately, i've been starting my final examination...well it's fine really fine...is it? oh well every critical time like this, something would come up and bothers me...why...why...and why?? I don't quite understand it.. It felt like a large lump in my heart pushing to my throat, trying to get out!

Oh friend, you are too precious for me..our friendship is priceless..Don't let our ship be sunked to the bottom of this challenging world...i know we could make through all this together...Don't just turn away..Let's face it!

It have been quite a looooooonngggg time~~

It have been a long time since i updated about my baby glider isn't it? 

Well this is GIZMO...he is already 7 months...

Cakk~! he is a little bit shy of the camera at the first time...

it have been quite a long time i didn't snap a picture of him ^_^

Now he already warmed up~~~Gizmo said: "Hello everybody...long time no see...weeheee!"

p/s: cute isn't he?

yeah another pose...way to go my baby =)

"huwaaarrgghhh too sleepy for any photo shoot during day time"

Yet i woke him up..hehe :)

LOVE YOU SO MUCH GIZMO~!!!!

On New Year's Eve

The last day of 2011 and welcoming 2012 with free heart and soul.... Normally during new year's eve, i usually sit by myself and reflect back on the things that i've done and accomplished so far...But for this time i gathered with my family...we all comfortably enjoy the last night of the year together, having dinner and midnight walk~~now how romantic is that?? Well actually tak la romantic sangat sebab everywhere and anytime we take a walk together, rase cam rombongan pun ade...hehe ^____^ because i have a total number of 6 siblings then plus my parents and plus my maid...so we make a total of 9 person walking together....hehe macam mini gathering kan? Well this is my family...

Even though i am with my family at that time, cherishing every moments with joy but my heart still bled because of someone, and as usual that night i did some reflection on myself...YES, i have indeed changed from what i am in 2010. 

• Now i add one more year to my age, progressing further in my studies
• I have my own car, my baby SUZUKI SWIFT SPORT (i named her Snow)
• Keeping all my promises
• be good to my family
• Always be there for my best friends (well not literally, but technically; i did fought with one of my besties but we made up to one another)
• Falling in love
• Keeping the love blooms
• hiding my deep secrets....
• etc 1000x

hehe so far the progress that i reflected throughout year 2011 is all okay~~ but until the month of December, something had happened to me...i think my dear readers know right? December is the toughest month for me in year 2011....until now my heart still bleeds....hurm... 2011 is fading away~~~

Now i don't know whether i should look forward for 2012 brightly or not. Just not sure of the things that are coming.....ouh~~~

Even though it is already quite late, but because we are still in January i would like to wish all of you Happy New Year 2012, and let us welcome this year with our heart opens.....HELLO 2012 ^____^

Thorn in between me...

Now i'm onlining using other people's lappy, i miss my cute little lappy..i don't need to type broad because my lappy is only 10 inch compared to this 16 inch! hehe ^_^ What am i going to post for today? Well as we all know, all ipta's student is currently facing their final examination period

BEST OF LUCK TO ALL MY PEERS WHOM CURRENTLY FACING THEIR FINAL EXAMS!! FIGHTING!

 remarkably this time i felt no mood at all to study...it is not like i am torn between to study or not to study but i am indeed don't want to study at all..OH NO~! NO NO NO NO....

Hehe actually wanted to share with you all something...For a long time i felt that there is a thorn in between my heart...luckily someone arrived into my life and the thorn was gone..but now it is here again, prickling deeply inside my heart and left me bleeding from inside...oh it hurts...it hurts~! *sobs*

 Somehow, people can't see that i'm suffering, i must swallow it all inside me...I must cloud all my true feelings inside and protect it from being known by others by keep smiling and be cheerful at all times...haish being yukie is not an easy task..Now i keep holding on, waiting for the answer to come or perhaps my time will arrive before i even know the answer...nobody will be held responsible to what happens to me...remember that...i know you are reading...hahahahaha (^_~) *spooky mood~!*

Lately i love to write poems, to express my deep feelings...well enjoy:

My knees start to shake

when you are in sight,

my minds filled with wonder

my heart with fright.

when will this feeling stop, 

when did it start 

how can I listen to my mind

without breaking my heart.

I am so confused, 

what should I do? 

I can't think of anything 

except of you.

Shouldn't ignore you 

 just give it time

I can't think straight 

my heart controls my mind.

I Say, I Love You...

Every time I say I love you...

I'm really trying to say so much more than those three little words.

I'm trying to say you mean more to me than anyone else in the world.

I'm trying to let you know that I adore you and 

that I cherish the time we spend together.

I'm trying to explain that I want you and that I need you 

and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts every time I think about you.

And each time I whisper "I love you", I'm trying to remind you that you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Deep in my heart...:::....

Sometimes there are some stuff that you keep in your head, it will blends with your thoughts....

And again it will raise questions and pondering about this and that...

Well i take a deep breath and answer the questions with my heart...

Because for me when you unconsciously answers your thoughts...

That is the truest and most meaningful answer because you know your heart's desire...

Without anyone to interrupt your answers...

My advice is  be true to your heart...

You need to be true to yourself everyday and always ^__^

If you are asking if i NEED YOU,

The answer is FOREVER....

If you are asking if i will ever LEAVE YOU,

The answer is NEVER....

If you are asking if what I VALUE,

The answer is YOU....

If you are asking if I LOVE YOU,

The answer is I DO....

P/s: It is not easy to be true to one's self...but do try, cause you'll never know what the outcomes will be...indeed it will surprises you though....

Dampening eyes of me~~

I have shed my tears long enough

I have restless nights long enough

Why is all this happens to me?

Am i not being destined to be happy?

The answer might be true...

And i am alone inside

The hollowness once filled with you

Now it is hollow once again

Without you i'm LOST

Without you it is better for me to go away

DIE

Leaving this world at peace once and for all


You promised to make me happy
SHATTERED
You asked me to wake up
SHOULDN'T
You said you loved me
.......
*sigh*


Last night i thought i was the luckiest girl in the world
When you said how beautiful i am to your eyes
We cried out of joy for one another
And yet cried together out of the bitterness
You said that we shall never be apart
You will never leave me
And i must never leave you
You are my soul and i am yours
Is it just simply words?
Coz i couldn't comprehend the feelings it brought with...

there are some you can't let go of
the ones whom you shed a tear for
when they travel away from you
those are the ones you feel you love

then there are some that you hate to see go
but hold back your dampening eyes
when they part from your side
these are the ones you know you love

Liza Hanim- Merawat Luka Terpendam

Lately ku banyak merasakan diriku disakiti...dihimpiti...dipijak...dibuang...ditinggal...haish2...kalau nak list banyak sangat...Ape2 pun lirik lagu kat bawah ni sangat menyentuh perasaan yuki...lirik lagu ni seakan-akan melambangkan apa yg ade dalam hati yuki ni......

Merawat luka yang terpendam

Kesannya masih berdarah

Hendak ku tangiskan tiada pedih

Yang telah terjadi padaku

Pasrah aku terima

(Korus)

Kau hujankan penghinaan

Aku renjis kesabaran

Aku curah pertanyaan

Adakah bahagia nanti akan menyingkir hiba

Dalam ribut ada hina

Dalam tenang ada sabar

Dalam tangis sendirian

Berkemungkinankan bahagia nanti akan menyusur tiba

Bukan ku mengundang bencana

Juga tak ku menabur dosa

Tak dapat dinafi kebetulan

Dugaan menimpa diriku

Rela aku terima

(Ulang korus)

Wedding dress dilemma...

Nowadays when i opened my social network websites..here and there people are talking about Bella Swan's @ Bella Cullen's wedding dress in the movie Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn.. I have yet to watch the movie because am now so busy with all the schedules, assignments, presentations, oral tests, quizzes and etc2..because now we only have less than two weeks left before the final exam of the semester begins!

As i am intrigued by the subject matter...i tried to Google the wedding dress picture...and the result is very impressive..It is a very highly sophisticated wedding dress... 100% Good Job for the Costume Department of the Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn movie...*clap clap clap* ^____^

So here are the pictures...p/s: there's so many different version appear when i Googled it, so i don't know which is the one that is being portrayed in the movie...so i'm just guessing and choose the most elegant ones....

Woooowww this one totally looks like high class, elegant and sophisticated dress...hmmm....

This one looks simple and naive..yet very pretty...

SUGAR GLIDER TALK GATH (santai and lepaking)

NEW UPDATE.....ATTENTION PLEASE...jgn lupa tengok
SCHEDULE:
Loc:Bukit Cerakah/Bukit Cahaya SHAH ALAM
Time: ~9am-4.30pm~
**Entry Payment:RM3 per entry
**Car Parking:FREEE tapi harap jgn la letak barang yg berharga dlm kenderaan anda :)
Facilities:Mini Zoo,Swimming Pool,kedai warung mkn minum bnyak,etc..
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JOM!!!!!!!
wahai pembela2 SG or SG LOVER...lets lepaking Sharing about SG knowledge as like
FACE TO FACE hahahaha tkda nk gado2 mcm kt dlm FB group hahaha
SG Talk ni amat SESUAI UTK SENIOR DAN NEWBIE so semua la boleh hadir.


**BARANG YG PERLU BAWA:
~payung incase ujan
~kipas tgn kut ada yg cari salji kt situ hehehe
~suming terang or gelap..kut ada yg nk mandi manda,kt situ ada sumingpul
~tikar getah or anyaman kut tkda port lepak yg best..sebab kita kena serbu booking tmpat..
~MAKNAN & MINUMAN mana yg sudi bawa tu nk buat cara POTLUCK diharuskan hehehehe sebab kt situ pun yg ada kedai2 runcit je kut ada yg tk suka nanti
~SUGAR GLIDER TRAVEL BAG kalu mana yg ada..sebab kita lepak lama.....bonding pouch pun ok juga
~.....


LETS TALK THERE GUYS...
SG talk ni caranya bukan la nak naik ke pentas kenal kan diri,cita biodata sikit.....NO..no..no.no
hahaha kita just duduk dan berborak santai but bukan la mcm LANGAU punya bising hahaha kita dngar dari satu persatu ilmu yg akan rakan kita kongsikan dari segi pendapat dan cadangan yg bijak...dalam masa tu juga akan diselitkan PROMOSI jualan dari rakan2 kita seperti accs SG,suppliment SG dan mcm2 adaa.Yg tidak memiliki SG juga boleh turut serta tidak ada masalah
PADA YG MENJUAL ACCS SG JUGA...waktu ni la yg best UTK PROMOTE2 ;)
LETS SELL YOUR SG ACCS/SUPPLIMENT and TREATS THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TALK BY HUN and some this event crew also will talk it

PERHATIAN:-
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PADA YG SUDI SHARE EVENT NI PADA RAKAN2 YG LAIN NO PROBLEMOOO Thanks.


syarat2 pertandingan:-
1. Sugarglider yg bonding dengan owner shj yg layak menyertai pertandingan.
2. Penyertaan terbuka kepada semua yang hadir.
3. Hanya dua(2) pertandingan yg boleh disertai oleh setiap individu.
4. Sebanyak 20 pernyertaan akan dibuka utk setiap pertandingan. *sekiranya penyertaan lebih dari jagkaan pihak penganjur akan mempertimbangkan semula jumlah penyertaan
5. Yuran penyertaan mungkin akan dikenakan utk setiap pertandingan. *jumlah yuran penyertaan akan d beritahu kemudian.
6. Keputusan penganjur adalah muktamad sebarang bantahan hendaklah dibuat secara bertulis & disertai bayaran sebanyak RM10.
7. Pihak penganjur berhak membatalkan penyertaan mana2 individu sekiranya mendapati individu tersebut melanggar syarat2 diatas & yuran penyertaan tidak akan dikembalikan.

*sebarang kecuaian tidak akan ditanggung oleh pihak penganjur
*Yuran pertandingan adalah bertujuan untuk pembelian hadiah.
*pemenang akan menerima hadiah yang sama nilai dengan jumlah terkumpul yuran penyertaan.


Tentative Program:-
0900-1000 registeration
1000-1030 ice breaking (sesi suai kenal) :D
1030-1130 Yoong Yuin Hun Glider Talk~
1130-1200 1st game
1200-1300 kelvin slot (DIY toys)
1300-1400 lunch *lunch tidak disediakan pihak penganjur
1400-1430 2nd game
1430-1530 DIY Cage by Pak Ajak n Zul hakimi
1530-1600 3rd game
1600-end glider grooming + product selling & promotion *inbetween any slot u r feel free to buy glider product.
~~~~~~~~~~Some MEDIA WILL TAKE APART~~~~~~~~~~

Setiap hari aku rindu~~

Hari pertama… Kita mula bertemu
Hari kedua… Kita membalas senyum
Hari ketiga… Kau hubungi diriku
Hari keempat… Rindu sering merindu
Hari kelima… Kau bisik rahsia hati
Hari keenam… Kasih kian bersemi
Hari ketujuh… Kau ucap kata sayang

Terjalin lah ikatan percintaan… Kau dan aku

Hari hari… Aku rindu
Tiap saat ku tatap potretmu
Moga moga kasih kita kan direstui
Oh kekasih

Hari hari… Aku cinta
Siang malam terbayang di mata
Jangan jangan 

Hari esok ada yang terluka

Berjanji lah oh kekasih ku
Berjanji lah padaku dan ku jua
Sehingga kini masih mencintaimu

Oh sayangku

Mimpi mimpi indah semalam
Jangan lah di hancurkan
Tak ingin ku berpisah kasih dengan dirimu

Hari pertama… Kita mula bertemu
Hari kedua… Kita membalas senyum
Hari ketiga… Kau hubungi diriku
Hari keempat… Rindu sering merindu
sering merindu

Pictures of Gizmo. . . .my baby Sugar Glider...

On my best friends request, they wanted to see the pictures of Gizmo drinking his milk...I would like to apologize for updating on it quite late..Sorry girls... (-_-)

There's too many things that happen in my life nowadays and yet too many things to settle...haish...Wish that you girls are by my side..why are we very further apart? What can i do...but i trust our bonds, it will last forever..~!

So here are the pictures...

Gizmo coming out of his pouch when he smells the milk, "yeay time to drink milk~!"

gulp, gulp, nyum, nyum.....sampai comot2.. (^_~)

tengok tu..pegang syringe macam pegang botol susu...awww my baby is so cute!

mama kate: "minum sampai habis ye gizmo!"

heee, gizmo just follow the syringe...

it's a relieving moment for me when i feed gizmo with milk....feeling like a mother myself! ^___^

After finish drinking milk, gizmo will go back to his tent and wait for his mommy to rub his tummy....hehe good boy gizmo!

Tale of the heart. . . .

Today my heart is thumping fast....faster than anyone could imagine...why..why...WHY???

I think only me and God knows why...

Something had happened today...and i will continue to cherish this moment inside my heart...

i would like to say thank you to my loved ones for everything....

you make my day brighter... ^___^

Romantic Definition of Man

Now i am sitting with my friend who take Romantic and Victorian subject which is for the English Literature specialization course..and we now discuss about Man from a romantic point of view....

JUST A BIT REMINDER...this is the definition of man according to Victorian English Period alright?

What is man? How does he differ from the gods on the one hand and nature on the other? What is the divine element in a man? A different set of answers to such questions or a shift of emphasis in the old answers, changes the style and subject matter of poetry and the poet's conception of his function.

For example, in the age of the heroic epic the difference between gods and men is that the former are immortal and the latter must finally all die like the beasts. In the meantime, however, some men are made godlike and separated from nature by the favor of the gods, becoming heroes who do great deeds. The poet, that is, the man inspired with the gift of tongues, celebrates the hero and his acts.

In the Middle Ages, the quality which man shares with God and which the creatures do not have is a will that can make free choices. What separates man from God is sin, that he can and does choose wrongly, love himself and act selfishly. The function of the poet is to exhibit the human soul tempted by competing loves and to celebrate the ways in which she can be redeemed.

‪Dude Harlino feat. Asmirandah - Bunga-Bunga Cinta (Ost Dalam Mihrab Cin...

* tak pernah terlintas di benakku

saat pertama kita bertemu

sesuatu yang indah tumbuh dalam gundah

harum dan merekah

*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net

** tulus hatimu buka mataku

tegar jiwamu hapus raguku

membuncah di hati harapan dan suci

menyatukan janji

reff:

bunga-bunga cinta indah bersemi

di antara harap pinta padaNya

Tuhan tautkanlah cinta di hati

berpadu indah dalam mihrab cinta

repeat **

repeat reff

repeat *

memboncah di hati harapan dan suci

dalam mihrab cinta

i like this song very much! and plus i like the person who sings this song~~~dude herlino (^_~)

hehe may all of you can enjoy and understand the meaning of this song...