Thorn in between me...

Now i'm onlining using other people's lappy, i miss my cute little lappy..i don't need to type broad because my lappy is only 10 inch compared to this 16 inch! hehe ^_^ What am i going to post for today? Well as we all know, all ipta's student is currently facing their final examination period

BEST OF LUCK TO ALL MY PEERS WHOM CURRENTLY FACING THEIR FINAL EXAMS!! FIGHTING!

 remarkably this time i felt no mood at all to study...it is not like i am torn between to study or not to study but i am indeed don't want to study at all..OH NO~! NO NO NO NO....

Hehe actually wanted to share with you all something...For a long time i felt that there is a thorn in between my heart...luckily someone arrived into my life and the thorn was gone..but now it is here again, prickling deeply inside my heart and left me bleeding from inside...oh it hurts...it hurts~! *sobs*

 Somehow, people can't see that i'm suffering, i must swallow it all inside me...I must cloud all my true feelings inside and protect it from being known by others by keep smiling and be cheerful at all times...haish being yukie is not an easy task..Now i keep holding on, waiting for the answer to come or perhaps my time will arrive before i even know the answer...nobody will be held responsible to what happens to me...remember that...i know you are reading...hahahahaha (^_~) *spooky mood~!*

Lately i love to write poems, to express my deep feelings...well enjoy:

My knees start to shake

when you are in sight,

my minds filled with wonder

my heart with fright.

when will this feeling stop, 

when did it start 

how can I listen to my mind

without breaking my heart.

I am so confused, 

what should I do? 

I can't think of anything 

except of you.

Shouldn't ignore you 

 just give it time

I can't think straight 

my heart controls my mind.

I Say, I Love You...

Every time I say I love you...

I'm really trying to say so much more than those three little words.

I'm trying to say you mean more to me than anyone else in the world.

I'm trying to let you know that I adore you and 

that I cherish the time we spend together.

I'm trying to explain that I want you and that I need you 

and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts every time I think about you.

And each time I whisper "I love you", I'm trying to remind you that you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Dampening eyes of me~~

I have shed my tears long enough

I have restless nights long enough

Why is all this happens to me?

Am i not being destined to be happy?

The answer might be true...

And i am alone inside

The hollowness once filled with you

Now it is hollow once again

Without you i'm LOST

Without you it is better for me to go away

DIE

Leaving this world at peace once and for all


You promised to make me happy
SHATTERED
You asked me to wake up
SHOULDN'T
You said you loved me
.......
*sigh*


Last night i thought i was the luckiest girl in the world
When you said how beautiful i am to your eyes
We cried out of joy for one another
And yet cried together out of the bitterness
You said that we shall never be apart
You will never leave me
And i must never leave you
You are my soul and i am yours
Is it just simply words?
Coz i couldn't comprehend the feelings it brought with...

there are some you can't let go of
the ones whom you shed a tear for
when they travel away from you
those are the ones you feel you love

then there are some that you hate to see go
but hold back your dampening eyes
when they part from your side
these are the ones you know you love

Setiap hari aku rindu~~

Hari pertama… Kita mula bertemu
Hari kedua… Kita membalas senyum
Hari ketiga… Kau hubungi diriku
Hari keempat… Rindu sering merindu
Hari kelima… Kau bisik rahsia hati
Hari keenam… Kasih kian bersemi
Hari ketujuh… Kau ucap kata sayang

Terjalin lah ikatan percintaan… Kau dan aku

Hari hari… Aku rindu
Tiap saat ku tatap potretmu
Moga moga kasih kita kan direstui
Oh kekasih

Hari hari… Aku cinta
Siang malam terbayang di mata
Jangan jangan 

Hari esok ada yang terluka

Berjanji lah oh kekasih ku
Berjanji lah padaku dan ku jua
Sehingga kini masih mencintaimu

Oh sayangku

Mimpi mimpi indah semalam
Jangan lah di hancurkan
Tak ingin ku berpisah kasih dengan dirimu

Hari pertama… Kita mula bertemu
Hari kedua… Kita membalas senyum
Hari ketiga… Kau hubungi diriku
Hari keempat… Rindu sering merindu
sering merindu

‪Dude Harlino feat. Asmirandah - Bunga-Bunga Cinta (Ost Dalam Mihrab Cin...

* tak pernah terlintas di benakku

saat pertama kita bertemu

sesuatu yang indah tumbuh dalam gundah

harum dan merekah

*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net

** tulus hatimu buka mataku

tegar jiwamu hapus raguku

membuncah di hati harapan dan suci

menyatukan janji

reff:

bunga-bunga cinta indah bersemi

di antara harap pinta padaNya

Tuhan tautkanlah cinta di hati

berpadu indah dalam mihrab cinta

repeat **

repeat reff

repeat *

memboncah di hati harapan dan suci

dalam mihrab cinta

i like this song very much! and plus i like the person who sings this song~~~dude herlino (^_~)

hehe may all of you can enjoy and understand the meaning of this song...

LIFE: X SIMPLE!!!

I’m trying to put all the pieces together so I can figure out why it is happening

But there are moments in life that you can never understand

It’s confusing and heart breaking, and when your heart cries for help,

 No one even notices it, like you don’t even exist

Death is the biggest tragedy in someone’s life

It just takes the person away without leaving anything behind

Not even their memories, as they start to disappear as time passes

Truth can hurt people’s feelings

But at the same time lies are worst

They can destroy people’s lives without even realising

Living your life by denying the truth can leave a permanent mark on your heart

The mark that would never allow you to be happy again

As you feel like you can’t trust anyone again

I sit there looking at the pictures and remembering the memories

The memories that bring that smile back on my face

As if I’m reliving them and that he is here with me

I wake up one night calling his name, wondering if he is okay,

I see him every time I close my eyes; he is sitting there smiling at me

It makes me miss him more and more each day

I know that people come and go

And you should never cling on to someone

Because they will let you down, not everyone manage to keep their promises

But sometimes I feel like I can’t let go, like I am nothing without that person

I wonder if I will ever get chance to see him again

If he still remembers who I am, if he still loves me the way he used to

I just wish I could have him back in my life

When I first heard the news I was in shock,

I couldn’t bare thought of seeing another day light without him around

There aren’t words that could even describe how I felt.

People say he only moved from one life to another, but they don’t understand how it feels to lose someone,

You wouldn’t careless whether there is another world,

They not in the same world as you anymore and that’s what hurts you

Something’s that you experience in life,

 Makes you appreciate what you still have left

But when you ignore your life, the world starts to ignore your existence

It’s weird how everything turns to be your enemy

You just feel like running away

You start living in the lie and avoid the truth

When someone pasts away, they say their ghosts are still around

As they don’t know what actually happens to them

They say every soul needs to feel the death that’s why people die

And some people need to get over their lost whether it’s hard or not

You can never win against death; it will defeat you no matter what!

What scares me about life is that everything happens suddenly

You can never expect to live for next day or still be round your loved once

You can lose your life in a blink of an eye

Sometimes something’s are best to be forgotten

It’s unbelievable what life can throw at you

You just have to be able to take it when it hits you

People say that most important thing in life is having faith and believing in it

But what if what you believed in was gone with the person that is gone

How can you say that there is more to life?

That what you believe in can still be succeeded

I wish I could move on and let go of him

But as much as I want to I can’t do it

It feels like he is the one who is hanging on to me

I say that I have put my past behind me

But I realised that I haven’t …

I’m just deluded my self in order to believe that I have chance in this life

mana diriku pergi. . .

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Bila ku bertanya

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Apa puncanya???

Hatiku terdiam

Ibarat tiada degupan

Namun masih keruh.

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Hatiku kusut

Fikiranku runsing

Mengapa? Kenapa?

Pergi!

Pergi daripada diriku

Ku ingin bersendiri

Melayani perasaan

Mencari arah tuju.

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Apa caranya??

Apa solusinya???

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Menjadi diriku yang dulu.

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Masa tujuanku pasti

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