It hurts when you miss someone but don't want to admit it~~

Currently i am missing someone so much~! But i just don't know how to express my missness to that special person...Do help me...huw ='(

During your absence..

Im just being me..

Its just that...

Id see your pictures..

wait..

Its not day dreaming..but..its observing in detail

Id view your number..

wait..

Its not to wait for your call..but..its just browsing my phonebook

Id view your number again..

wait..

Its not to hear your voice..but..to edit your contact

Id say your name..

wait..

Its not that i miss you..but..its just that your name rings a bell

Id dream about you at night..

wait..

Its not that i want you with me..but..its just the picture of u drops in during that moment

Id talk about you

wait..

Its not that I want to..but..its just something that people as about

HURMMM..However..id be lying to myself if all of the above happen with the

but

As the truth is..

Id see your pictures = Day dreaming about you

Id view your number = Wait for your call

Id view your number again = To hear your voice

Id say your name = I miss you(only god knows how much)

Id dream about you = I want you with me

Id talk about you = I want to(cure the miss i have)

Oh YES~~! and OH NO!!

OH YES ^__^
This semester will end soon~~yeay!* i'll have a long semester break then..
I can be with my family once more. I don't have to worry about lectures, quizzes, midterms, examinations, assignments etc2..wah what a relief..

HOWEVER~~
when the semester is going to end..so that means THE FINAL EXAMINATION IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER~~OH NO!!!!!!!!

there's still lots of things to be done~~currently feeling like i'm dying...

here's some important dates that i must remember::

15 Sept 2010 - 26 Oct 2010	Lectures
	28 Sept 2010 - 01 Oct 2010 (by Level) 27 Sept 2010 - 15 Oct 2010 (All Level)	Tentative Dates for Web-Based Pre-Registration of Courses for Semester 2, 2010/2011 and Semester 1, 2010/2011 session
	27 Sept 2010 - 15 Oct 2010	Withdrawal after Deadline (Penalty of RM 500.00 per Course)
	27 Oct 2010 - 29 Oct 2010	Revision Period
	27 Oct 2010	Last Day to Submit Application form for Change of Programme
	30 Oct 2010 - 15 Nov 2010	Final Examination Period
	16 Nov 2010 - 12 Dec 2010	Inter Semester Vacation
	06 Dec 2010	Announcement of Semester 1, 2010/2011 Examination Results (Online)
	08 Dec 2010 - 11 Dec 2010 (By level) 12 Dec 2010 - 17 Dec 2010 (All Level)	Web-Based Add/Drop and Adjusment of Course for Semester 2, 2010/2011 Session
	13 Dec 2010 - 17 Dec 2010	Adjustment Period
	13 Dec 2010	Classes Begin

Deep in my heart

I know I can't be there, Baby, it's alright, I'll be waiting for you tonight. I pray that you'll be there, when I close my eyes, meet me in my dreams tonight.

p/s: jiwa tak tenang. . . .

i miss you forever. . . . . . .

I walk the hallways
its not the same
her locker empty next to mine
I miss the way she laughed
I miss the way she cried
I've known her my whole life
now it looks like not quite till the end...
if I would have stopped her from getting in that car
she might still be here with me today
I'm lost without her
together we were
inseperable
but now were seperated forever until my day will come
I wish it would come today
so I could be with her right now
the last words I heard from her
were in her hospital bed
slowly dying holding my hand
all she could say was I love you.. your my bestfriend till the end then her eyes slowly closed
you may not be here
but I know your here in my heart
I miss you... forever..

Something happens in my life. . . . . . .

UNEXPECTED things CAN HAPPEN, and believe me THERE'S THOUSANDS OF POSSIBILITIES....^^"

Bukan diriku-samsons

Happy Eid Mubarak to all:::

May this Eidul Fitri brings happiness to all muslimin and muslimah....

p/s: Click on the picture to enlarge it ok~!

Finding a heart @ Mencari sekeping hati part.1

When a Girl asked a boy " who am i to you?" the boy answered "just a friend, whom i know and cared for." the girl asked further
"what type of friend am i to you? why you cared for me?" the boy answered "you r my close friend, of course i care" 

then,

he just walk away. WAIT!! he doesn't hear a breaking sound from the girl's heart? 

BOYS!! one thing you need to know,
never take we girls for granted. Most boys doesn't like commitments, that's why their answers to our questions are very rhetorical. Well hurm...hurm...*i am pondering what to write next..* 

They answered that way in order to make their opportunities wider and to avoid from harming the girls. 

BUT they do harm us by answering that way. 

They just DOESN'T REALISE~~

Have you ever feel like you are always be as A BESTFRIEND TYPE OF GIRL?? well that's what happen to me. I have some boy friends around, whom i'll be there for them no matter what..When i said i love them, they will just laugh at me~~and i will go...why? why? and why? again.. Am i not a serious type of person..*maybe*~~ When a boy know that i like him, i am in love with him, despite my feelings he also in return say that he also like me and loves me *kyaa~!*, but at the same time he asked me to find him a girl whom he will make as his girlfriend *love,soul mate* and whom maybe he will make as his bride. I just smile, *but in my heart i am breaking to pieces, i am crying like hell~!* BUT HE ADDED " you will always be my girl~~my BESTGIRL" Oh god, doesn't he know that i am indeed devastated by him??? Oh gosh~~!!!

I am always in search for a heart where i can be inside to feel secured and protected..but in my journey i always being harm and worse crash for life~! why? why? why?

P/s: Must i wear a plaster like this so that u boys know that i am hurt?

FINALLY . . .

Last night upon my arrival at the bus station. I smile and nearly cried to see my younger siblings faces, eager seeing me arrive and also caring, sweet faces of my parents..they all came to pick me up~~ *something weird because normally it's just my dad alone who come and pick me up, well i bet they all miss me so much~!* Then we all journey back home...home sweet home ^_^.. At home, all of my siblings surrounded me, asking me lots of questions and want me to tell them stories about me, how have i been so far~~ well i kind of exhausted and my brain don't want to think much..so i told them that i will entertain them tomorrow..now i want to rest. So they disperse.. I took a bath, wear my night gown and lay in my bed. My eyes doesn't feel sleepy anymore~! So i chit chat with my younger sister until 3 a.m. hehe ^_^

This morning...i heard a voice...waking me up early at 4.30 a.m. It is the voice that i have been missing for months..I am indeed craving to hear that voice again..It keep calling me, calling my name..asking me to wake up..~~"kakak, bangun kak, bangun..sahur..sahur..jom3!" hehe..it's the voice of my DAD...MY BELOVED DAD..waking me up for SAHUR! oh how i miss his voice...*i pretend that i am not waking up because i want to hear his voice calling me again and again...naughty me~! ahahaha* finally i woke up...i open my eyes slowly...indulging the feeling of being at home at last...i smile to myself..and rise up..i stretch and turn my head to my right side..there lay a girl whom i love so much..i can't stop smiling seeing her sleepy face..i woke her up, "bihan dear, bangun..sahur.." she's my younger sister *next after me, i am the eldest, she's the second*. i open the window of our bedroom, taking a very deep fresh breath..i felt relaxed and calm, the beauty of being at home..far away from the polluted city a.k.a Kuala Lumpur. I am going to use this opportunity being at home fully. I will spend it with my beloved parents and siblings.

SEDIH YANG AMAT~~~!!!

Orang lain semua dah balik kampung....Tinggal eryna sorang2 aje kat sini..roomate semua dah lesap..ni la padahnya lambat beli tiket pastu mula la terpaksa balik lewat sikit sebab tiket dah habis..KALAU IKUTKAN HARI KHAMIS DAH BOLEH BALIK~! tapi apakan daya nasib diriku yang malang..oh tuhan...Tu pun dah kira nasib baik sebab fify belikan tiket, kalau x, x balik la jawabnye..uhuhuw ='( Well duk sorang2 ni kuat pulak online..*padahal banyak lagi kerja lain nak wat, barang x kemas, bilik x kemas lagi, assignment berlambak..etc2* ye la nak u batkan hati yang sebak dan lara di tinggalkan sorang2 begini...huhuw... Xpe la BE STRONG ERYNA kan~??!!!

Ok la dah x mo fikir yang sedih2...now eryna nak kongsi dengan u guys this pic sebagai peringatan bagi semua....(p/s: click kat gambar utk enlarge..senang sikit nak baca..hehe ;P )

haih~! ^_^

Gift of a friend

Sometimes You think You'll Be Fine by Yourself
Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone
Its Easy to Feel Like You Don't Need Help
But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

You'll Change
Inside
When You
Realize

The World Comes To Life
and Everything's bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend
The Gift of a Friend

Someone Who knows When Your Lost and Your Scared
There through The Highs and The Lows
Someone to Count On
Someone Who Cares
Besides You Where Ever You Go

You'll Change Inside
When You
Realize

The World Comes To Life
and Everything bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend

And When your Hope Crashes Down
Shattering To The Ground
You , You Feel All Alone
When You Don't Know Which Way To Go
And There's No signs Leading You home
You're Not Alone

The World Comes To Life
and Everything's bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe In
When You Believe In
When you Believe
The Gift of A Friend